Álvaro Hernando Freile: “Tahalí (Addiction)”

 

Translated by María Luisa Ortega Hernández (DePaul University of Chicago) and read by Antonio Martínez Arboleda (University of Leeds)

 

tahalí (*)(Addiction)

 

            The slavery of desire

      or suffering dressed as sex

 

I swallow the smoke at your waist

as a tahalí of fingerprints,

as a curved abacus

where beads balance

when he joins in, adding one more.

 

Dollar bills on fire

a hip on fire

a hand on fire

beading on fire

invoice price on fire.

 

I dress in that chain,

unbreakable, made of touch

as if an anchor

subjugated

submerged in your depth

an invisible leather

moored fast into your earth.

 

How do I break you?

(*)TRANSLATOR’S NOTE: Even though the Oxford English Dictionary records the word “tahalli,” indicating as erroneous the form “tahali,” J. G. Lockhart’s translation of The Spanish Ballads (1822 publication) leaves it in the original Spanish except for the accent: “Of gold-wrought robe or turban — nor jewelled tahali.” (“The Zegri’s Bride”). John Parkinson does the same in his poem “The Death of Khalid Ibn Walid. ‘The Sword of God.’”: “Not thus, / Not thus should Khalid die. What ho! my spear, / My mail, and helm, and gleaming tahali;” (Parkinson, John. Lays of Love and War. Ardrossan: Arthur Guthrie & Sons, 1890, 46-50). Likewise, H. W. Longfellow uses the Spanish word, printed with the Spanish accent (1856 & 1886 editions: “tahalíes”) and without the accent (1835 edition): “A band of Moorish knights gayly arrayed in gambesons of crimson silk, with scarfs of blue and jewelled tahalies, […]” (“Ancient Spanish Ballads.” Outre-mer: A Pilgrimage Beyond the Sea. New York: Harper, 1835, 1-26). Now, among such noble company and upon considerable reflection, this translator feels compelled to leave the original Spanish “tahalí” in her English translation—accent included—as the best word to render the Spanish-Moorish voice it evokes, and the mystical depth revealed by its meaning.

My gratitude to all the librarians who facilitated my research for the title of this poem in translation. Special thanks to Jennifer Schwartz, Humanities and Social Sciences Librarian, John T. Richardson Library, DePaul University, whose enthusiasm, knowledge, and guidance led this amazing team: Susan Bazargan, Research and Reference Librarian, DePaul University; and Kathy Young, University Archivist/Curator of Rare Books, Loyola University Chicago Archives & Special Collections. No wonder Jorge Luis Borges envisioned Paradise as a library!

 

 

Poema leído por el autor

 

tahalí (adicción)

 

             La esclavitud del deseo

    o el sufrimiento vestido de sexo

 

Trago el humo en tu cintura

como tahalí de huellas,

como curvado ábaco

en el que cuadran las cuentas

al sumarle uno de más.

 

Billetes en llamas

cadera en llamas

mano en llamas

abalorio en llamas

factura en llamas.

 

Me visto esa cadena,

irrompible, hecha de roce

como de un ancla

atraillado

sumergido en tu profundidad

invisible el cuero

aterrado a ti.

 

¿Cómo quebrarte?

 

Ex-Clavo. Valencia: Karima Editora, 2018, 62ández

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